Bestie Bliss

I have always been a firm believer that your company shapes your character. So when I tell you I scored the jackpot with the friends I have now… I really did and I am so blessed and grateful. I couldn’t even tell you how I came upon such great people, I guess we just crossed paths one day and never looked back. But I do remember they instantly made me feel alive, calm, and happy. But I didn’t always have friends like that, therefore I cherish them a lot more and am happy that I created such a beautiful circle for myself. I just can’t help but wonder what I did to deserve such amazing friendships in my life.

Each person in my life has a purpose, and each person in my life has also helped me with something that another person couldn’t. I am constantly left feeling inspired and supported by my friends. This past year has been the most challenging year of my life and it really showed me who was in my life for the right reasons. Now, not every friendship is perfect, there are always downfalls and I know sometimes I can play a part in those downfalls but I am working on being self-aware. All I can hope for is to mirror the love and support I receive from friends and family.

Throughout high school, I went through many different “friends” and friend groups. Now before I continue I wanted to mention that I am not the type to regret some situations, I see it more as a lesson. Many of my old high school friendships were lessons, and there were only a few that I just fell off with and they still hold a special place in my heart. There were a few friendships that ended badly just because of the way they made me feel (as I’m sure vice versa) but otherwise most of them “fell off” because of my own personal issues. I felt like I had to make sure everyone else was happy and it was a lot to live up to so in the end I felt like I was letting them down. I don’t know if I was trying to prove something to them or myself, but then again I wanted to find people that I didn’t feel like I had to prove. All of that was on me though, with my anxiety that’s just how I thought/felt. But I knew that I obviously shouldn’t feel that way and I shouldn’t waste my energy on people or things that aren’t helping me in life.

I do have many associates. I like to use that word and I see that it may be offensive to some but that’s what most people are to me, I don’t want to feel obligated to be there for someone when I don’t feel the same in return so I keep a very small circle and always have, I just like it that way. But my associates are people I like, I’ve hung out with them before we just don’t talk otherwise. But the vibes are always good. Those can sometimes be the best type of people in my opinion. You don’t have anything you feel the need to live up to.

There’s a quote I’ve heard a few times now and it says something like “We only get a handful of friends that last a lifetime, so cherish them.” The few best friends I have now feel like those lifetime friends, perhaps like family. I feel respected, seen, heard, loved, and supported. The friends I have now don’t make me feel like I have to live up to their expectations or prove something to them. They accept me for me. Best friends are one of a kind, mine are one of a kind. In my opinion, we’ve always felt like a team. Inseparable almost. They’ve shown me what a real friendship feels like. They stay when others walk out. They’re there through the roughest days as well as the best days. They uplift dreams. Support every win. We’re always there for each other in the best way we know how, and I think that’s enough. Sure we fight like we’re family but there is never a strong enough reason to leave each other. All of my best friends have helped me in many different ways and I’ve learned many great things from them. I value the unique influence they’ve had on my journey. So, therefore I am blessed and grateful. Never force friendships. Never let others walk over you. Never change who you are to fit in. The right ones will come and stay. You all deserve good friendships, never think or settle otherwise.

Remember to always be yourself and don’t change for anyone. And to my best friends… thank you for everything. I love you.

Love always,

M.R.